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Friday, June 01, 2018

Lightning strikes

Something happened that night
When rain fell hard from the skies
So quiet, save the sounds of our voice
It never ceases to amaze me
What solitude can do to two minds
With stolen kisses and lightning bright
Made beautiful by your hand in mine
My heart in yours.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

Luck. Fate.

All my life
I got what I wanted,
But never what I needed.

Now perhaps my luck is changing
And I am getting what I need
But nothing I want.
It makes me sad to see what I perceive as happiness
Slipping away from my hands;
It makes me sad to understand
That I may never have what I want again,
That my happiness will never make me smile for a minute or two,
But my laughter may perhaps last a lifetime?

Is that a dream?
Do people know they stand at the edge of a precipice if all they can see around them is darkness?
It has to be a sixth sense that warns you of your demise
If you take a step forward instead of backwards,
For sometimes...
It is better to step back than surge ahead,
Step back from that cliff,
Take what you need and not what you want.

Saturday, May 05, 2018

Echoes

When time stops
And the world sighs
You hit reset
And your heart cries
You have regrets
Mistakes you've made
Remember
The echoes fade.

It seems to grow
Overwhelm your mind
It hounds your feet
Until you hide
The sounds of hate
The tears you've cried
Remember
The echoes fade.

Then joy creeps in
Like a thief at night
It's here with you
And you lose sight
Of hurt, and pain,
The price you paid
Finally
The echoes fade.

Friday, April 06, 2018

It's only words

A line a day
Is too much anyway
A line to pen
Or a man to hen
A line a day
Keeps the fight away
A line to me
Keeps me company
A line in time
Saves a life or nine
A line to read
Like air to breathe
A line I say
Makes a better day
A line or five
Dazzles my mind
A line to live
And a line to die
A line to make me
Come or cry
A line a day
Keeps the doubts at bay
A line from you
Do you think of me too?

Monday, April 02, 2018

Bharat Bandh

Dear world, why do you burn??
Am I doing something wrong?
In mayhem and blood, you turn,
And violent endings streak the dawn
When passions stir and hopes collide
In sweaty days and stirring nights
We wake to find you burning bright
With fires raging on the streets
And children crying to make ends meet
The people starving everywhere
But no, what do we care?
We are a selfish, privileged lot
We'll kill them all before we stop
To pause for breath, to give a damn
'bout anything but this hopeless sham
We watch you darken every day
And slowly give our world away
And slowly let you burn away.
We are a people of an age
We use you as our burning stage
We will persevere and prevail
And drown the world in bawling rage.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Survivor

I waded through the wreckage, fringes of my skirt catching in the edges around me. The plane crashed, they said. We all died on the way to Bali. Ironical, then, that I'm still standing. The hollowness in my stomach tells me I'm not yet dead. The bodies around me say everyone else is.

There's a child's hand sticking out of the carnage, and I walk over to it. Hold it. Try to give it the solace it'll never have again. What happened here??  What mad hand of fate knocked a Dreamliner out of the sky like a gnat? Maybe no one knows. I say a quick prayer for the dead.

I'm not looking for food as I continue walking, but I find it anyway. It's mostly charred and on the ground, but needy hands shove what they find into grasping mouths and clenching stomachs. We are sated now. I continue walking.

There's a radio squawking in the wreckage and my attention is drawn to it. It speaks of a rescue, it screams for survivors. People are crying over spilt milk and crashed planes. I might tell them I lived. I might ask for help. But not now. For now I must see.

From one end to the other, I make my way across the aisle. Masks strew the way and bodies litter under my feet. The occasional burning patch or sharp metal slices and hurts them. But is that any less than what I deserve? I'm humming to myself now, a childhood lullaby my nanny would sing. PTSD, the doctors would call it. I'm not sure what I'd call it anymore.

My hand skims over the burning flesh of the pilot again when I complete my tour. He was a nice man, now that I think about it. My mother certainly thought so when she married him. I wonder why she never listened to my cries for help when he 'held' me at night, though? Maybe she thought I was having nightmares. Maybe she didn't know he was my nightmare, every day, from the day I turned 11.

I pick up the radio, breathless with the tears that shine through my smile. "I'm alive... ", I whisper into it. "Come save me". They'll listen this time. 

First Date

Maybe he thought of me
Sometimes
He may even remember my name
Maybe the thought of me
Those times
Brought a smile to his face
Maybe the time was
Not right
Maybe he'll call me again
Maybe his life was on
The line
Maybe he'll still not forget
Maybe he thought of me
Sometimes
And smiled at my naivete
Maybe I was never
On his mind
Maybe it's all in my head.

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

My girl

Hush lil' girl
Don't make me fall
For smiles so sweet,
Don't make me call
You in the night
To hear your voice,
Don't make me think
Of you sometimes,
Don't make me laugh
At silly lines,
Don't make me want
To hold you close,
Don't make me want
To want you more.
Hush lil' girl
Don't make me smile,
But if I fall
Don't make me cry.