Paradise lost, paradise found

There is no word for what I feel
The deep and dark and rushing zeal
This love and hope, my shining world,
Embracing life and what is real.

Remember when my life went wrong,
There was no love nor hope nor song,
Whenever I recall that day
When I but took my life away
If there was ever such a time
I pray it never does me find
I try to take these baby steps
Softer, slower than the rest
With faith I find my winding way
With hope I live another day
Without my ruminations sweet
I doubt my life would be complete
Whether I will or I endure
My baptization will be pure
I will be cleansed in raging fire
I will survive to reach higher
Through every error I have made
I'll find the knowledge to be saved.

I want to walk through summer's heat
I wish to dance to every beat
I want to hear 'most every call
I'll fly to fail, I'll rise to fall
I'll wave my arms like wildebeest
I'll gorge myself on every feast
And fall asleep at mother's feet.