Not Love

No, I don't think love is blind,
It's just a spiny porcupine,
With needles sharp, and oh so many
That poke my heart, it's not even funny
It never lets me hold it close
Don't trust in love, it's a thorny rose

No, I don't think love is deaf,
It's just a concept in my head,
It makes me sing and dance and smile
And makes me feel so happy, so high,
But all I hear are Nevers and Nos
Don't trust in love, it's just a prose.

No, I don't think love is dumb,
It's just something that makes me numb
It steals away my hope and my joy
And make me wish for that fickle boy
Whose smile is warm and heart is cold
Don't trust in love, it'll steal your soul.

Jingle all the way

Maybe you were busy
Maybe you didn't miss me
Maybe you were weary
Or just didn't want to kiss me
The moon was just too bright
Or the stars were just too many
The sun was in your eyes
The weather was too sunny
The sky was overcast
The clouds were far too gunny
The smoke was in the air
My nose was acting funny
Maybe you were busy
Maybe you didn't miss me
Wish you'd want me more
Wish you'd want to kiss me.

Invisible

You hurt her, you hate her,
And still she cared,
She watched and she waited
Though she'd never dare
To tell you she loves you
Your lips, your smile,
She watches, she waited,
Alone she'll cry
Her friends call her crazy
And so do you
She knows she's not perfect
She knows she's mad
She knows she's forgotten
She's just so sad
She wishes you greatness
She wishes you joy
And slips into darkness
Away she flies.

Tinder

I'm drowning in faces
I'm drowning my love
I'm swiping, I'm looking
For someone who might
Look something like you
Be something like you
With only one catch
That he'd like me too
I'm swiping, I'm crying
I'm drowning my love.

Borderline

Above my heart
Below my vein
Where you kiss
Is where I cut
One slash, two,
And over again
Until I see
The blood and pain
These hands of mine
One hard, one sad,
One weilds the knife
One pays the tax.

I'm not alone
Not in my mind
I have my words
Of different kinds
Some words of love
Some words of pain
Of hurt, obsession,
And pride so vain
A word so kind
It melts your heart
And keeps you warm
In winters dark.
A word so harsh
It blows across
The dusty plains
Like winter stark.
A word of hope
A word of prayer
A word to make you
Wish you were here.
These words are mine
I give them away
And ask, in turn,
No price you pay,
But give me words
To hoard as mine
A song, a quote,
To pen my lines.
So give me magic,
Dim the lights,
Show me joy
Or steal my sight.

What is life
But pain and blood,
You knock it down,
It still gets up.
You play with it,
It fucks you up.
You make it work,
Or give it up.

How to Survive

Bits and pieces of my life,
Scattered over wind and time,
Bits and bobs and shiny things,
Mingling with broken wings,
Here a person, there a man,
Scattering like grains of sand.
Take a penny, throw a dime,
Here's a story, there's a rhyme,
Keep it close or scatter it,
Pieces falling bit by bit.
Keep it in in waning light
Let it out in darkest night
When the clock strikes midnight
Insanity will win the fight,
Insanity will hold me close,
And whisper in my deepest throes.
A story I may have to tell
A story I may have to tell,
A story not of living well,
But living on and living hard,
And living through the darkest dark,
No lanterns shining over me,
But what I could make..
Save what i could see.

I don't understand
These foolish thoughts
This feeling bad
This feeling lost
The anger grows
I noticed that
It keeps me safe
It keeps me smart
Be silent now
My foolish heart

Random

What is touch?
A touch of time.
A hand of fate
A fate in rhyme
With feelings felt
And lessons learnt
Of freezing touch
And fire burnt.
In burning woods
We run and hide
We run in vain
Against the tide.
The ocean drowns
All happiness
It lowers hope
In hollow breasts.
No hope I see
No touch I feel
Just randomness
And empty zeal.

Dim lights & Magic

"I should take the dim lights around you and make some magic..." - Anon

Dim the lights & close the door,
Find the one you're looking for,
Shed your mask & shed your clothes,
Caress my skin and hold me close,
Move your body over mine,
Let your fingers stop my time,
Lips and tongue and hearts collide,
Make your magic, take me high.
Bring me down to earth again,
Catch my breath, then I begin,
Touching, feeling, lips and licks,
Worshipping with little tricks,
Take you high and bring you low,
Let you crash and hold you close.
Slowly as your breathing slows,
We start again, lo behold
Riding, loving, through the night
Sometimes naughty, others nice,
Salty skin and sweaty slopes,
Tracing hills with tips and toes,
Pick the pace, then slow again,
Tides of pleasure washing in,
Hold me up against the wall,
In my bed, come make me fall,
Silky tremors swallow me,
Come and keep me company.

My journey song

Give me road
Or give me sky
Give me wheels
Or wings to fly
When I'm lonely
When I'm high
I like to watch
The world go by
I travel spaces
Near and far
Both in my mind
And in my car
To watch the pretty
Flowers bloom
Or bathe in sunsets
Pink and blue
If only I could
Hit land again
My car would stop
My flight would end
My journey is
A rolling song
Come with me
And sing along
If I could take
Your flickering lights
And weave you magic
I would try
I only have
My journey song
So ride with me
And sing along.

Don't you ever promise me
Things you know that cannot be
Lines you know to never cross
Simple things I'd never ask.

Don't you look at me and say
That my beauty breaks your heart
You and I, we know you lie
Beauty never played no part.

Don't you make me laugh aloud
Make me smile, make me shout,
My emotions shatter me
Let me sleep in misery.

Don't you make me feel again
Little loss, nothing gained
Stranger's kindness makes me dream
What I know will never be.

Giving Up

I have no heart,
Only whiskey or wine
It tears me apart
To see humour die
At the hands of men
Who make poor jokes
My feet are so tiny
My tummy is huge
And dirty my toes
My dress was so new
I fell in the drain
Along with my dog
Her bath was in vain
She fell down again
We ran on the roads
Like thunder and lightning
Racing and flying
I still sweep my home
Of dust and smoke
The smell of paint
Hangs in the air
My eyes are now drying
As tears are falling
They fall on my lips
And taste of me weeping
I rattle the cages
Of people around me
Their hearts are full
Of love - it's frightening.
I don't know why or how
But I have no heart.

Hollow

We're hollow, you and I,
We're many poles apart
We'd like to think we're alike
That we were meant to last.

Someday I know that you and I
Someday we all will die
Someday perhaps the hurt will cease
Someday somewhere we'll find our peace.

Sometimes I feel the pounding rise
The love, the hate, the bloody ties,
Somehow I understand our pain,
Someday somewhere we're whole again.

When all the flaming pillars fall,
Some moment free of Misery's thrall,
The glass will break and we will see
Someday somewhere we're free to be.

Profundity

I must find
The moments of madness
In my life of love
And laughter and sadness
To express myself
Better. 

Spaces

There is a right and there is a wrong
And there is a grey in between
It's there that I want to live
For who are we to say what is right
Or what is wrong?
Let the heart write it's own song.
There is an in and there is an out
There is a scream and there is a shout
Who are we to say which is which
Without a doubt?
Let the rhythm play it's own gong.

Don't.

Accuse me not of empathy
For I don't feel at all -
Not this warped reality
Not a shred of sanity
Not a sense of  gravity
All I feel is sympathy
Just for this profanity
For all your fluff and vanity
For mine and your toxicity
But I ain't got no empathy
Not for the dying man
The dying dog or the helping hand
Not that you'd understand
That I have no humanity.

The Pigeon

You lie there with a broken wing
Fighting to live, to breathe, to fly,
If you knew you'd never fly again
Would you rather live or die? 

What men want

This is a woman,
A journey of life;
To have, to keep,
To love or despise,
To leave, to try,
For no reason why.

If she made you strong
She made you cry.
If she gave you breath
Her feet, your sky.

She isn't a dance,
She is the fire.
She isn't a song,
She is desire.

She may be your hope,
Your every wish,
Your need to rule,
To be dismissed.

Judge her not
For what she wants,
Her needs, her fonts,
For what she won't.

But what she will
Is love you well
Her body yours
Her soul as well.

How to ...

Love is but
A cancer of heart
A cancer of soul
Of mind and whole.

Love is not
A melding of minds
But melding of bones
Of wishes and stones.

Love believes
In leaving behind
Your whispers, your no's
Your dreams, your goals.

Love demands
The peace of your mind
The skin off your sole
The cells at your core.

Love will try
To take you so high
And let you go
Just let you go.